Thinking about the past - 1st day

Time is divided into three parts: past, present and future. Let's start think about the past. What is actually happened in the past, whether I lived in a proper life, or whether I missed something, or even my life was best, or may be worst.

When am thinking, I am actually never thought about the past. I am a person from current, I never think past and I never think about the future. I thought myself past is past, and future is future, just live in present. When I think about past, I get stressed, and when I am thinking about the future, I stressed too.

Today I started a new challenge: Morning Miracle for 21 days.

Today morning, I actually woke up at 5.23 am. Prepared breakfast for my husband, brought him to the train station, come back had shower, cleaned home a bit and had exercise for 10 min. Now 6.46am, I am sitting in my computer with a cup of coffee and thinking about the past.

I am now 41 year old. Actually, if I will live up to 80 years old, which is the most highest level of the life. I hope I gonna reach to 80, I am already in half of my life.

How was my life in past 40 years?

1. Family: I have very cute family: I have husband, who love me forever, am thinking. We had actually up and down, anger and happiness, yet we have love and live to fill each other's gap. We have lovely 4 children: 2 boys and 2 girls. Gender equality. Boys are 15 years old, and girls are 5 and 2 years old. They are my life, love and precious moments.
2. Education: I did  PhD, which is the highest level of the education and still I am study in trainers and assessment course to be a vocational trainer. So regards to the education, I assume, I reached to my peak point. 
3. Wealth: I have a 1 bedroom apartment in my home country, which is not bad I hope. Yet, as I have 4 children, I should have more bigger house??
4. Health: We are healthy life style family. I never buy items with artificial colors and flavours. Always read ingredients of food. Cause, my boys have allergies, which is serious problem for me, and one girl never eat food, which is also problem. My husband work so hard in the construction sector, who also need nutritious and healthy food. So I always try to select the best. 
5. Work: In my home country I was actually worked in different projects implemented by international organisations and I was actually reached in my peak point. But when I am here in Australia, I still cannot find the exact job what I like or I wish to do. So that's why I am still study to get trainer's certificate. I hope, one day I gonna be lecturer or trainer in uni or college in Australia. 

Me internally: I lost my mom, grandmom and my brother one year apart. The years between 2013 -2015 was actually so much cry, stress and pain. I do not wonna to see again any death or some one die because of something. So I run away from my home country and now I am here in Australia to live with healthy life for my children.

So thinking about the past, if life is 100% including family, education, work / career, wealth and health. I am thinking personally I reached 70% of in my peak point. 

My goals are:

• To have a job of my dream as a lecturer in uni or the researcher.
• To have financial freedom: have a big house and financially free without any worries.